I'm Still Searching

I had drinks with a banker today. We spoke a bit about different career paths and he told me that at the end of the day, its about "knowing what you want". So I asked him back, Do you know what you want? He replied, No actually I don't. He is in his early 40's, successful, earning v well, has two kids and a dog, and well-liked by people around him due to his humour, intelligence and wits. I told him you are kidding me - With such a successful track record, you don't know what you want? pause...

He's not the first. Another friend of mine in his mid 30's is already a millionaire. He laments. He says that he knows he can make money now, but where should he stop? Where does his draw the line between earning more, working non-stop and balancing the quality of life? He was frustrated.

What about me? I am getting tired. I am not earning a million, but I am getting tired. Tired with the politics I am fighting, which many has asked me to give up. My family however thinks otherwise. They think its an opportunity to right a wrong. I am truely tired though.

It is now 2am. I am still waiting for my hubby to return. Out at work at the moment. Do I really know what I want after all this education, and a fortunate life which many say I shouldnt lament about?

I doubt it.... ;(