Can I have Two Families?










Thinking @ Roponggi Mori Art Museum

The personal message I see today from a close friend is "Can I have Two Families?". MEANING: Greed, lust, underlying undiscovered passion versus duty; Usage: When someone attached in a long-term relationship suddenly discovers passion for another. Greed of wanting to have the best of both world, yet showing honesty about the state of how it is going to be. Having greed and honesty - does it make the individual seem more sane?

Why would I want to blog a subject like this? It is contrary to the topic of isolation because 3 is a party! haha. Because I am the subject of this greed.

Taken Over by Isolation - temporarily

Guess, its crazy, its 1:05am. At work today, I swore to myself I want to sleep earlier to I can perform better tml, but now I want to write this anyway...

Since I started this blog, most of the time I think of whether my entitled blog Isolation is appropriate. My conclusion is my gut feel of the name Isolation initially is simply just right for me.

Why the isolation? Because I am all alone. Alone not in a pathetic sense, but the opportunity to live alone overseas has taught me more. Learning to adapt to a new banking environment is one, learning to adapt the Japanese lifestlye is one, learning that I hv sleeping prob if I think too much/ upset @ night is one, learning about relationships is another.

No doutbt I have made many new frens here, true enough there is still isolation in this foreign country. The worse is when I have met sort of a close fellow singaporean who has also relocated here, but yet the frenship is pretentious. I dont get it, when both are facing isolations, dont they bond?

I cant play politics, I feel pretentious if I hv to. Yet it feels almost naive to think that to be an innocent free of politics- type of girl - u are gg to survive in an IB environment. Competition, jealousy. Yes I am in a good position, been posted to Tk straignt after landing this job from Singapore. But I am just doing my role the best I can - levelheadedly, logically on the face of this planet. I dont know y pple think politics and playing on emotions need to be involved. I hope the Heads, being experienced, see that some are just playing on emotions to score points/ attacking my planet.

Got home, had a long shower to calm my nerves, had an argument with my bf, which simply made things worse, yes the isolation is doubled or tripled.

I know I will keep going on strong. Not going to let judgement, fear, games get me down. I love my life no matter how isolated, and I will continue doing my best.

I should only do/ care what matters.

Pirates of the Carribbean

Could anyone have guessed that Pirates of the Carribbean was filmed in Hakone, Japan? Neh, neither could I. But hey that was the exact feel most of us had @ Hakone.

Obviously the rain couldnt stop the Tokolites and myself from taking the cruise onboard the Pirate ship. Pics taken during Hakone trip (5/13) with Cousin Ange and Husband Mark.

Tokyo: My Firsts...

Today, I pen down my 1st blog -- and also the 1st time I attended my Japanese Language class through YWCA. It was warm when I stepped out of Yebisu Garden, 23 degrees, I would hardly scream HOT if I was in Singapore. But I have gotten use to this lovely cool weather after being here for three months.

Class started at 1.30pm. Watashino sensei wa omoshiroi desu. In a class of 8 with different nationalities, I was the only one with the worst Japanese proficiency. But then again, these guys are schooling here, and I didnt require nihongo @ work. The feeling of not knowing sucks, but since there were free snacks and tea later, I dont really want to complain.

Headed for Da Vinci Code after class. Oh yes, its another 1st... my 1st movie watching excursion in Shinjuku. One thing I couldnt understand was how you had to start queuing 1/2 an hour before the show starts outside the cinema (how do they do that during winter??) -- reason is after you get your ticket, it is free-seating! Hmm, this system seems obselete to me. Luckily for my fren & myself, we were in the top 10 of the queue (singaporu jin desu kara)... but weird thing is, when we arrived in the cinema, it was already 1/3 filled, obviously the best seats taken. I dont know where these pple come from. Apparently, when you buy a movie ticket, you can stay on for the entire day --- to rewatch the movie again and again (??).

Caught the train @ 11:15 back to Yebisu. The Eki @ Shinjuku always feel like a mini airport to me, only that it is far more congested. Its funny how it is really cultured here, but when it comes to getting on the train, well there is a lot of less-cultured pushing going on.

Happy to be back @ Yebisu, as usual when I am home, I am stuck with my best fren --Dell -- my communication window to the rest of the world -- friends in Tokyo, Singapore, London.